My heart aches with thoughts of family
who are so far away. Those memories of
the ones I love so much are on my mind
today and the emotions are hard to shake.

I changed my life...and those of the ones
I left behind when I decided to go down a
path which God did not approve. I made
peace with God and He gave me hope of a
better tomorrow. I have been resting on that
hope.....but yet, today I have taken back that
peace I once had and my heart is heavy once
again.

Why do we take back those problems we
trusted God to take care of for us? He is far
better equipped to deal with our battle
scars than we are!

In the quietness of my home I hear the cries
of my children and I am helpless to do
anything. I am too far away to hold them
and openly cry with them as they are hurting.
I wish I could make their pain go away....
no Mother wants their children to hurt
the way mine are hurting today.

I will give back to God my pain some time today,
but right now I am unable to do what I know is
best for my heart. That is clearly to lean on the
Lord for all things in my life....good or bad.